Update! Last Day Of Kindergarten

June 23rd, 2010

First off,  for any new readers…to start this blog Scroll all the way down to the bottom to begin this journey….

SO today is 6/23/10….. Your last day of school! We made it!

We had our share of bullying and tough times with homework, but I can honestly say,  Jack,  you NEVER complained the whole year.  Every day when we would get in the car I would ask,  “SO Jack! How was your day!”  and everyday you would respond the same way …”It was awesome!”  Then I had to plead for any other information I could drag out of you.

Jack you already know exactly who you are at 6 years old, Something most people don’t find until they are adults.  We just love everything about you!! Congrats sweetheart!!


The First Day Of Kindergarten!

September 10th, 2009

It has come and gone… your very first day of school.  Now, I have to admit, being the drama queen I am I had envisioned an amazing send off.  Your name would be called, we would walk into your class arm and arm and I would lead you to your desk where we would stop for one final embrace tears flowing from both of us, and of course it would all be documented with amazing footage that I would post here for the big 30… strike that… 31 day climax.

Ok, ok.  So it did not go down like that at all.  We did have a great morning though.  I was misty, but never cried; I assumed that would happen when we got to class.  The only word to describe what really went down was “chaos”.  The school changed the time and the teachers on us at the very last minute.  Parents were all grumbling with complaints, it was crazy hot, your brother got lost then found by a stranger who gave me the stink eye for not watching  him closer.  Then they lined you guys up.  Daddy and I ran to give you a last hug, you waved to Gramma and Grandpa, and that was it.  You were in the door and out of my arms with a smile on your face.  

When I picked you up( wearing my train necklace) you came to the door beaming and when I asked you how it was you excitedly explained, “It was awesome!”  Here’s to hoping that is your same sentiment next week.

Jack, I want you to know, that the last six years with you have been a complete gift to our family.  You are loved.  Really, really loved.  You are silly, funny, nervous, witty, smart, timid, gregarious, a chatterbox, handsome, curious, scientific, imaginative and in my eyes… just plain perfect.  I am so excited to watch you find your way in this life and I feel privileged that I get to be part of it!

We love you sweetheart.




Day 1

September 9th, 2009

We had a great day of doing mostly nothing today.  We talked a lot about school and you are ridiculously excited.  We had dinner at your current favorite resturant.  When we got home you and I stuffed your little backpack with school supplies and made your lunch.  Then I read you stories in my bed beacuse you asked if you could sleep there tonight.  I, of course, said yes.  Jack, I think we are finally ready for this new chapter in our story to begin…



September 8th, 2009

So here’s the thing… tonight should have been the night before your first day of school; making tomorrow the big day, but alas, I miscounted.  You start school the day after tomorrow.  Your Daddy, of course, did the math right away.  You see, there’s more than 30 days from August 10th to September 10th.  Anyhow, feeling a bit embarrassed I wanted to change it, but he would not let me.  Instead he told me, “That is just so you.”  It is true.  It’s no secret that I was not the best student in school.  It did not come easy to me nor did I particularly enjoy it.  I guess that has a huge role in why I have my hesitations and fears about sending you to school.  I just don’t want you to have a tough time and I am scared that I may not be smart enough to give you help when you are going to need it.  I will do my best though.  I’ve been told I sell myself short, but right now, I am felling pretty thankful your Daddy did really well in school!  So… um… anyways… Day 1, tomorrow, again!


Day 2

September 7th, 2009

Tonight you and your best friend got a special night out with us Moms….alone!  This entailed a classy dinner at McDonalds’ playland and a super fun hour spent bowling.  You two get along swimmingly and have so many inside jokes!  The two of you have have known each other since you were each 2 years old, but will now be headed off to different Kindergarten classes.  Watching you boys tonight I got really excited about all the friends, parties, sleepovers, and games you have in your future.  I have spent  a lot  of time worrying about our separation, but I am happy to say you are more than ready for this next adventure!  At the end of the night as you were taking off your little bowling shoes you said to me ” Mommy, Thanks for taking me bowling, this was a great night!” It was a great night and I hope you know it meant the world to me.


Day 3

September 6th, 2009

Today we went to one of your most favorite places, Lego-land.  I absolutely adore going places with you.  Your excitement for even the smallest details is so fun to watch.  We go to amusement-ish type places a lot and not just because you have such a great time exploring them, but because we do, too.  You have a way of making life just so incredibly fun.  Thank you for that.

For a moment today I did get a little down.  The park was fairly crowded when we got there and my first thought was, “No big deal.  We have passes.  We will just come back when school starts.”  It then hit me that in just a few days no longer can we just hop in the car and do as we please as easy as we could before.  Whether I like it or not school is now a huge part of our lives and it is here to stay for the rest of the time you live with us.  We already loved them cause we get Daddy all day, but I have a feeling that weekends are about to become a hot commodity around here.


Day 4

September 5th, 2009

Tonight I heard a sentence come out of you mouth I never thought I would hear: “Mommy, I’m tired, can you put me to bed?”  This was unusual, but today was a full day!

The day started early by going on a trip with your Daddy to purchase an axe to cut down a couple of pesky trees in our backyard.  When I woke up and came downstairs you were wearing blue upside-down swim goggles.  You must have been able to tell by my expression that I was not pleased at the idea of your Dad wielding an ax because you told me, “Mommy it’s ok…these are my safety goggles.”  The rest of the day was filled with a birthday party, a fun visit with your Aunt, Uncle and cousin, Grandma and Grandpa and another cousin, and swimming -twice. I feel like we barely got to talk today.  I am so glad you asked me to put you to bed.

Some of my favorite moments are the end of the day are when I get to lay down with you to help you fall asleep.  We read and talk about the day, and you ask a MILLION questions.  Usually ones that I can’t even answer.  Like, “Why  do bees have stripes?”, or “Why do some planets have gasses?”  I do my best to answer you, but usually after tripping over a lame explanation I let you know we will  have to look it up on the internet.  You then toss and turn and tell me you love me a few dozen times.   I  know you are asleep when your little body finally relaxes and you drift off into a sound sleep.  Its moments like these after you have been surrounded by people all day and I finally have you to myself that I realize how lucky I am to be your Mom.


Day 5

September 4th, 2009

I was so excited to find a train charm necklace.  Your love of trains runs so insanely deep that it has also turned me into a train lover.  Exscuse me. Trainiac – that’s what you call us train lovers.  You were with me when I bought the necklace a few weeks ago, but you found it again in my room today.  You brought it downstairs and said, “Mommy, you have to wear this whenever we are apart, because it will make you feel like we are holding hands.”  No words cut me as deep as the ones that can come so casually out of your mouth.

You then quickly followed up with, “You also need to wear it so it will remind you to pick me up from school.”  I didn’t even know that was one of your worries.necklace

Day 6

September 3rd, 2009

Today I went to your new school and saw your little name up on the class roster.  We got to see who your new teacher was and who all the kids in your class are.  It was mixed emotions for me.  On one hand I just can’t believe we are here already.  On the other hand I was SO excited to see your name up there with so many other kids your own age!  You have not had a  whole lot of same age interaction. I am not sure where their parents have been hiding them, but it wasn’t around us.

We “redshirted” you.  Meaning we got to keep you out of school an extra year.  Last year I questioned every parent and teacher I could find on what their thoughts of sending a Fall Baby to school when they were 4 years old.  I was surprised at how mixed the recommendations were.  Many told me that it was so much better for you to get that extra year of play, growth, and maturity, but surprisingly, there were several that told me you were ready and I was just being selfish if I kept you out.  Maybe they were right.  I am selfish, but I don’t regret getting that extra year with you at all.  I am also fairly sure you don’t either.


Day 7

September 2nd, 2009

My baby boy, we have but one week!

School Supplies? Check.  Super Studly Haircut? Check.  New School Clothes? Check


These new traditions for us have reminded me how fun the whole getting ready for school process was…..I really was not expecting this re-experience to be so enjoyable! How relived I am that I have moments like these.

Day 8

September 1st, 2009

6 years ago today, is a day I actually remember very clearly.  I was pregnant with you and your due date was September 11.  Late comes naturally to our family and your actual arrival date  turned out to be 18th.  My pregnancy was long as there was not a single day all nine months that I was not wretchedly sick with morning sickness. The reason I remember September 1st so clearly is that I remember thinking to myself,  “No! It can’t be! …..September already???”  I was so excited to meet you, see your face and find out who you were going to be, but a big part of me wanted to keep you all to myself.  Safe and sound.  Funny that today, 6 years later, I feel the same way… “No! It can’t be! …..September already???”


Day 9

August 31st, 2009

You have one of the worst thresholds for pain I think I have ever witnessed.  Today you fell while running and needed some serious affection to help you deal.  It is not just physical pain though…you are an extremely sensitive boy.  It seems unfair that we can’t always have our Moms with us.  When I hurt I still want my Mom, too.  My heart is very heavy tonight thinking about who will hug you when you fall at school.


Day 10

August 30th, 2009

You laugh a lot.  A LOT!  Your laugh is so infectious that when I hear you randomly laughing about something in the other room I can’t help but to crack up, too.  You can find the funny in just about every situation.  I meet people all the time that I wish possessed this very trait that comes so naturally to you.  I have been thinking lately that your silly nature might get you in to a wee bit of trouble in school. Having been a class clown myself, I have a feeling that I might have trouble trying not to laugh when they call to tell me about your latest hi-jinx. DSC_0063-1

Day 11

August 29th, 2009

Lately, I have been hearing a lot of Mothers tell me, “I can’t wait for my son to start school”, and ,”This summer can’t get over fast enough!”  Comments like this were starting to make me wonder if I have an unhealthy attachment to you.  Then today, it happened.  For the first time ever I had legitimate feelings of readiness for you to start school.  I am sorry, but I am officially out of responses for the numerous times a day I am asked, “Mommy, I am so bored what can I do?”  Here’s to hoping school helps you to appreciate the pleasure of down time.


Oh and by the way….you really need a haircut.

Day 12

August 28th, 2009

Today at the mall  I asked you if you wanted to eat at Hot Dog on a Stick .

Your reply…

“I think I would much rather eat at Hot Dog Off A Stick”

You may need to go to school for an education, but I am pretty confident that your sense of humor is coming along just fine on its own


Day 13

August 27th, 2009

Today was your Daddy’s Birthday.  It also happened to be the hottest day of the year.  Not sure why, but we decided to go to Disneyland.  It could have been torture, with the blazing sun and the crowds, but it wasn’t.  There was shade, no crowds and we had a fantastic time.  I never saw a smile leave your face the whole day.  We first took you to Disneyland when you were 3 weeks old and you have been going just about every month of your entire life.  Yet you still get as excited as a kid from the midwest seeing it for the first time.  I love this about you.  We stayed for fireworks and they recently added a new feature where Dumbo comes out flying to the song “Baby Mine”.  Oh, Jack, just so you know, your Daddy and I had kind of an obsession about Dumbo and you as a baby.  To announce whether you were a boy or a girl, we did a montage of our baby pictures to the song “Baby Mine”  surprising everyone at the end with the big reveal…”It’s a Boy!”.  Even your first birthday was Dumbo themed.  The lyrics seemed so fitting to our feelings then, but tonight as I heard the familiar tune again, the heartbreaking words seem to make even more sense with the approaching start of school.

Baby mine, don’t you cry
Baby mine, dry your eyes
Rest your head close to my heart
Never to part, baby of mine
Little one when you play
Don’t you mind what they say
Let those eyes sparkle and shine
Never a tear, baby of mine
If they knew sweet little you
They’d end up loving you too
All those same people who scold you
What they’d give just for
The right to hold you
From your head to your toes
You’re not much, goodness knows
But you’re so precious to me
Cute as can be, baby of mine

Day 14

August 26th, 2009


Day 15

August 25th, 2009

Little Brother was really sick today.  So sick that I really did not have a lot of time to spend with you today.  You were so helpful; cheering him up and helping me with stuff when I needed it.  You never even complained.  I promised you that when your Dad got home you could go swimming and you were really excited.  It didn’t happen because your brother’s fever didn’t brake until the late eveing and the day just seemed to slip away.  I want you to know that things like this keep me up at night…thoughts of letting you down.  On nights like this, I am so thankful for tomorrows.  I can tell you for sure swimming is on the agenda.


Day 16

August 24th, 2009

You lost another tooth. Your second one. With your first one you were a crazy man and decided that you had to have it pulled by one of your model trains and it worked.  This time you were a little more nervous about pulling it and let this one get crazy loose.  You were standing in the kitchen talking to me and said, “I have something in my mouth”,  and just as you were about to spit it in the garbage you realized it was your tooth.  That look of relief you had in your face… that it was over and took no effort… was so familiar.  It is so odd, but I don’t really remember losing my teeth at all…I know it happened but I just can’t remember.  I so love these little moments in your life I get to be present for.


Day 17- (a post from Daddy)

August 23rd, 2009

I was working outside this morning and you came out to sit in the porch swing and chat with me.  We’d talked about different animals and how some care for their young and how some don’t.  Then you were silent for a bit when you said to me that I was the most important person in your life and that you wouldn’t survive without me.  I nearly cried then.  Of course, this was a slight on the truth as I’m fully aware that you would have worded this somewhat differently if Mommy had been within earshot (yes, I accept that I’m a close second to your affection for Mommy).  Regardless, I told you the honest truth that I wouldn’t survive without you either.

Later, I successfully taught you how to whistle.  I know I tried before, but today you took to it easily.  It made me think about all the things I’ve taught you up to this point and all the things I’ll get to teach you.  And all the things we’ll get to learn together.  You’re capacity to learn amazes me every day and I can’t wait to talk about all the new things you will learn in school.


Day 18

August 22nd, 2009

You and your Daddy got up early to work in the yard and let me and Lil’ Brother sleep in this morning.  You came and woke me up by handing me a little flower saying “Good Morning Mommy! I brought you a baby sunflower!” And like that, you walked away…. As soon as you left the room 2 1/2 year old Liam looked at me and said “He is pretty cute!”.  Oh how right he is,  I think Brother is going to be as wise as you….


Day 19

August 21st, 2009

You were Scooby Doo for a good part of our day today.  No costume though; you just walked on all fours and put a ‘R’ sound in front of everything you said.  Instead of “let’s go” it was “ret’s ro”.  You and your characters have been a HUGE part of our lives over the years.  You started very young at around 20 months pretending to be a weiner dog named Jorge from the Clifford cartoon series.  Over the years we have had numerous new characters that we have always played along with.  Some lasting years (Ruldolph, Wilbur, a baby zebra) and many that come and go as you fall in love with new characters and then phase them out (Aladin, Garfield, Bolt, Bambi… to name a few!).  A few have been hard to live with; especially the ones that don’t talk since you take your roles VERY seriously.  For the most part though they have provided us with so much entertainment.  In this last year, the charcters have slowly started to diminish so I was pretty happy when Scooby Doo woke me up this morning.  I know it is part of the growing up process to grow out of certain things, but I want you to know I still believe that one of these days my magic witch powers will start working again like they did when I was your age.

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Day 20

August 20th, 2009

Today at dinner you loudly proclaimed, “Mommy, you are the greatest photographer in the world!”  You look at me with nothing but pure pride and make me feel like I am a superhero.  I hope you know how much this can lift me up on days that I am down.  I hope to always live up to your high opinions of me.  I also hope you always stay this proud to call me your Mom.  I know one thing…I  will return the pride by always having as much faith in whatever you choose to do as you have in me at this very moment.  So remind me of this if your career path ever happens to lead you to be a Michael Jackson impersonator.


Day 21

August 19th, 2009

Today we were babysitting your cousin, Quinn, while her Mom went to a meeting.  You are so good to kids younger than you.  You never act like you are too old to play with them and you have incredible patience with them.  You, your brother and cousin decided to go play in our front courtyard.  I followed only to be  immediately pushed back in the house by you saying, “I am in charge.  I will ring the doorbell if there is an emergency.  Please leave us.”  I kept the curtain and door cracked, but I let you be in charge for the most part.  I am so very proud of who you already are.


Day 22

August 18th, 2009

Today’s conversation between you and I:

You: “Mommy… did you know I am a scientist?”

Me: “No, what makes you a scientist?”

You: “Well… when you are thinking I am sitting here watching TV sometimes I am not really watching TV.  Actually, I am thinking about scientific stuff.”

Me: “So what “scientific stuff” are you thinking about right now?”

You: “Nothing.  I am watching TV.”

I am so jealous that I now have to share your crazy brain with a teacher…I hope she appreciates it as much as I do.


Day 23

August 17th, 2009

I took this picture of  you yesterday…..at least it feels like yesterday


Day 24

August 16th, 2009

Today, I bought you a book, “The Night Before Kindergarten” by Natasha Wing.   I’m not sure when I will be able to read it to you without choking up, because of the following text about 8 pages in:

The parents were worried their children would cry if they left them at school with just a goodbye. So they told their little darlings, “If you want we can stay and make sure that everything will be A-okay.”

Then about 8 more pages in:

“When what to her wondering eyes should appear but sad moms and dads who were holding back tears!”


Day 25

August 15th, 2009

You have not been yourself as of late. You’re normally happy-go-lucky demeanor is now worried and your emotions run wild.  I know your heart is heavy… you have always been a deep thinker and right now your thoughts are never too far from your upcoming birthday, 2 impending surgeries, and the start of school.  I know this because you ask about them constantly.  Like Peter Pan you hate aging and I get it… as I always have, too. Tonight we went and hung out at Downtown Disney and at the hotels. You and your brother had a ball.  Finally, my happy little guy was back.  I thought to myself, “as long as we always make sure to  have nights like this we will be just fine.”


Day 26

August 14th, 2009

For the last 3 years you have lived in those unfortunate looking but oh-so-easy-to-wear Crocs for shoes.  A few times you have tried a real pair of shoes, but never wear them longer then 5 minutes before you would ask for your Crocs again.  Tonight we purchased you real shoes for school…a pair of black converse that look too cool on you.  You wore them for about an hour and a half until we got back in the car and you tore them off like a bat out hell.  You said you had “hot foot”.  Now I have sad thoughts of you trying to get through your day at school, suffering through a bad case of hot foot.


Day 27

August 13th, 2009

Your room was clean this morning.  When I walked back into it this afternoon you had covered the entire floor with train tracks.  Your obsession with trains has always been present and your ability to make impressive train layouts never ceases to amaze me.  I can barely connect a little circle track.  Although I want to bottle our house up, and our time, and not ever send you to school, I can’t wait to see what you will become.  If I were a betting gal (which I am) I would bet you will be an engineer like your Daddy and Grandpa.


Day 28

August 12th, 2009

Today you insisted we buy a Scooby Doo costume for you and a Shaggy costume for lil’ brother.  How could I resist such a strange request?  The next hour was spent with you guys gorging yourselves on snacks, because..well, in your words…”that’s what Scooby and Shaggy do!”  Oh please, please meet a best  friend in school that is as kooky as you and embraces all your little oddities.  I am so afraid of the bullies for you, but I am also afraid I might go all  Hand That Rocks the Cradle on them.

Scooby DOo

Day 29

August 11th, 2009

Today was one of the days that you and lil’ brother played together from the minute both of you opened your eyes in the early morning until the late hours of the night when your daddy took you out to see the meteor shower.  (We have not adjusted bedtime hours for school yet.)  Sure, there were moments of fighting where I thought for sure one of you would lose a limb….but the fights are few and always short lived.  Today for the first time I thought how lonely lil’ brother will be once you start school.  I am not sure why it had not occurred to me before.


Day 30

August 10th, 2009

Today, at about 12:45, a call came from Grandma and Grandpa that the circus train was coming through our city.  The next 2 hours were spent with us in our car chasing it down.  We saw the last half of the train, but never could catch the whole thing.  You were a little disappointed, but you were also excited about all the other trains we got to see on our quest.  I love our freedom right now to do whatever we want when we want.  I wonder what the school office would think if I pulled you out to go chase down a circus train.



"30 Days To Kindergarten" is by Jenny Loya.

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